So this was meant to go up in april but as per usual it didn't go up when planned but its a post a still want people to read so im putting it up now.
I didn't know this was a thing until i stumbled across Lex's Instagram page it really did open my eyes to just how many people have rosacea including myself as until a few years ago i didn't know why my face was constantly red and worse when i have a flare up .
This maybe the post im scared to post and it sounds so silly but i hate my face without a foundation on and showing pictures of my basically naked face scares me a little as very few have seen it.
I always know when im getting a flare up as my skin gets very dry and itchy.
What is Rosacea ?
It's a skin condition that creates irregular facial flushing, which can lead to over time persistent facial redness , visible blood vessels , paubles and pustles and thicken of the skin. You can also get irritated and dry eyes.
What causes Rosacea ?
The exact cause is unknown but it is believed to be more common with people who have pink toned skin or fair skin. It is more common in family's although its not clear which genes if any how they are passed on but my mum dad and brother are fine and have 'normal skin'
what does my Rosacea look like ?
I have a red patch on my forehead and chin and a butterfly affect across my nose and cheeks. (you'll get what i mean when you see the pictures at the bottom of this post.
How did i find out i had Rosacea ?
When i was about 20 ish i went to the drs as i was fed up with how red my skin was no matter what i tried the redness never went away and it was making me depressed it doesn't help that i was/still am slightly over weight and when my face went red i would think that everyone who looked at me would think i was really unfit when in reality im not the fittest but could run away if someone was chasing me. Getting off track but would it be a becki blog post if i didnt lol. After talking to my dr he told me i had Rosacea he gave me a prescription for Rozex cream and gave me links to pages i might find helpful. There is no test for it your dr will look at your skin and decide there and then if you do or dont.
Skincare for Rosacea
Im going to be honest i still dont have this down as i can have a great skincare for months then something will irritate my face and i will have to switch stuff out but at the moment i am using the simply pure range and the naturally radiant range from superdrug and they dont irritate me. I dont use anything specifically for Rosacea as i used the two tubes of Rozex he gave me and they didn't seem to do anything.
Covering Redness with makeup
Green concealer is my best friend when doing a full face of makeup think Elphaba from wicked my favorite at the moment is Revolution Conceal & Correct Green it blends out flawlessly and doesn't leave a grey cast on your face like many others i have tried.
Full coverage foundation - i have tried so many foundations and my favorites at the moment are the seventeen stay foundation unfortunately it has been discounted but i bought a stock of them from boots months ago and the other one i really like is the Revlon Color Stay Foundation
I also use a beauty blender as i find it doesn't drag the skin like a brush does.
I will say with these photos im not smiling because i genuinely dont like my face naked so all the photos look like i have resting bitch face lol.
Becki x
I'm not saying its all guys , most of you are probably very nice , it just seems to be i meet the shit guys or the guys who start out lovely then show their true colours (these are the worst).
If you are a guy and your reading this I'm pretty sure you could write a post on why women suck and to be fair some women do.
1/. They only want sex !!
I'm not a prude i love sex as much as the next person but i am sick and tired of talking to guys and all they want to do is get in to my pants !!. I think they really want to get to know me and he likes me as we are meeting up and talking everyday but he's only doing that as he thinks I'm going to let him fuck me. I'm not naive i knew if i had given in and said yes that would off been it he would of had his fun and i would of been left hurt and angry - Apparently not just my experience from research.
2/. They can become nasty and hurtful
Following on from they just want sex if you do turn them down regardless of reason not all men may i just add just immature ones who will start saying hurtful stuff
E.G - I was only doing it for a bet
You wont get anyone better then me (newsflash men we do)
No-one will fuck you you fat beach whale and so on. Now these do not affect me in fact they make me laugh but imagine if you said it to a girl and she believed all those things or shes in a bad state she could do something maybe something irreversible just think next time guys.
3/.They are liars
They say things you want to hear , They tell you that they are single or just not ready to date yet.
My personal Fave (this happened to me today)
You think they are still single and in to you as your working out when you can next see him due to working shifts and talking to him everyday only to find out via instagram that hes in a relationship and only tells you when you confront him !! I'm almost positive he wouldn't of told me if i hadn't of confronted him.
I'm almost 99.9% sure the guy iv just told you about ^^ doesn't know i have a blog i have mentioned no names as I'm not nasty and if you are reading this and you know the last one is about you i promise I'm not being nasty and its not a swipe at you the rest of the post isn't about you it's just the Instagram bit. I will say i thank the guy for bringing me out of my comfort zone and making me try new things and for making me less anxious when i met up with you you have comfort zen about you. If im being totally honest you did inspire this post when i found out but that's it.
Please tell me that some decent guys exist ??
Becki x
Better late then ever with this post am i right lol !!
Iv put together a list of Goals id love to achieve by the end of 2019 hopefully my 2019 roundup post I'll off completed some of these and not failed.
1. Get healthier
This goes without saying if you saw my why i don't upload to youtube anymore then you will know I'm not comfortable with the way i look so next week iv booked in to start clubbersize (I'm hoping I'll like it as its to cold for Aqua Fusion at the moment) I'm not looking to lose a load of weight maybe two dress sizes fingers crossed.
2. Start saying no
I say yes to a lot of things which is good but some of them make me feel really anxious and i only say yes to not hurt anyone's feelings but this year i need to put myself first and if it means someones upset with me then I'm sorry but its better then me being a anxious mess all day.
3. Grow my blog
I have no excuse not to do this. I have planned blog content until may (:
4. Change my hair
I think I'm getting tired of being blonde it always goes wrong whenever i dye it i ended up bleaching it the other month and it went yellow its only just started to look like a normal blonde and my roots need doing again *insert face palm emoji here*
5. find a singing group
I used to belong to one and i loved it. Music is a big part of my life and i love singing.
6. Actually use my iPod
My mum bought me a new one a couple of Christmas's ago once she saw how i had to charge my ipod touch (i had to dangle it over a counter for it to actually charge) and iv hardly used it. i need to update the songs and charge it. its in my bag but I'm using spotify at the moment (the free version I'm not paying £9.99 when i have a iPod lol)
7. Go to more concerts this year
Technically iv already failed this one as no-one will come with me to see Olly Murs or Westlife but i am going to see Rocky Horror in Feb (:
8. Tattoo ?
Iv been saying for years i want a tattoo. I actually want two one that is personal to me and the New York Sky Line one on my wrist one on my arm. The reason i haven't yet is I'm very afraid of needles.
9. Pass my drivers test
This really should of been number one but to be honest these are not in order I'm done messing around saying oh this year il book and pass its a matter of i need to. I finish work at 11pm most days and its becoming annoying having to get the tram and then wait for my connecting bus at 11:20pm plus its cold at the moment it takes me a good 45 Min's to get home but if i drove it would only take me 15 Min's its a no brainer really.
10. Save money
This is one i actually nailed last year i opened another bank account up just for savings and im working my way to a deposit for a house and furniture.
So it's been a while hasn't it ... I'm not going to go in to reasons why as that's boring so i thought id come back with a good old fashioned Primark Haul. I mean who doesn't love a Primark Haul ??
Primark Fake Nails both £1
I can't go in to primark without looking at the fake nails. They are just so easy to wear and you don't have to worry about chipping and if done correctly they can last a few weeks and for £1-3 Pounds they are much cheaper then getting your nails done every 3-6 weeks.
Friends Fridge Magnets £5
I'm not the worlds biggest friends fan (she says re watching the show on netflix for the 34324 time) but when i saw these i had to have them (: They are fridge magnets but i have them on my radiator my two faves have to be Hugsy and the iconic purple door (:
Lounge Pants £5
These ''lounge pants'' or PJ bottoms as i call them are the thing of dreams they are so comfy. They fit like a dream , they are cuffed at the ankle which is perfect , you can wear them out and they look like joggers (deffo not done that down to the local shop) and for £5 you cannot go wrong.
Toy Story Alien Hot Water Bottle £8
I have no idea where this obsession with the aliens from Toy Story has come from but i want everything to do with the Toy Story Aliens so when i saw this on DisneyFinds Instagram i knew i had to have it. Its so soft and cuddly which is perfect for the colder months ahead or for that time of the month or for aches and pains in general. It's £8 which for a Disney Item i feel is quite cheap as you could pay a lot more if it was from the Disney Store. They had loads of them in at the Meadowhall Primark so hopefully they should still have some if your from the South Yorkshire area (:
Reusable Disney Bag £2
After months of buying 5P and 10P and 50P bags every time i go shopping i have finally bought a reusable bag and of course it had to be a Disney one (: £2 is a good investment to save me buying bag after bag especially since i work in a supermarket and always seem to be buying things when iv finished my shift then wonder where all my wages have gone.
6 Way Nail Buffers £1
I don't like filing my nails as the sound goes through me so i always buy nail buffers but these are like nail files and i cant use them which is a shame but my mum loves them so at least they haven't gone to waste (: I'll stick to the poundland ones in future.
Cushion Sole Shoe Liners 3 Pack £2.00
Does anyone else buy socks and then can't find a simple pair ?? because this happens to me all the time !! Now its getting colder i have started to wear socks with my work shoes (£4 primark shoes that they class as slippers I'm guessing its the style of them can you tell why I'm not a fashion blogger) i prefer my socks to have some sort of cushion in them as when i do a 4 or 6 or a 8 hour shift at some point I'll be on self scan my feet need the comfort they don't like to be stood up for long.
Mickey Mouse pen £2
£2 for this pen !! if you went to the Disney Store or any off the parks I'm guessing it would be double if not triple for something like this (its been a few years since iv been to the parks)
The intention for this was to use it for work as i always lose my pens or leave them on whatever till I'm on and i always need a pen at work for writing down my breaks when i finish signing flights out putting in for overtime and doing cash back and this was then pen but living in my work fleece pocket most of the time Mickeys head fell off ): so now its just a pen i use at home which is a shame as i love the pen its just not suitable for work.
Friends Pj Short Set £6
Primark are now doing a 2XL which is awesome because as iv said before in videos a 18-20 fits but on somethings i could of done with that extra bit of fabric. I bought these in a 2XL to test the sizing but it turns out that i could of done with the 18-20 as the top was big and i was flashing my boobs at my family until my mum did something with a needle and the straps and now it fits better (: The whole PJ set only cost £6 which is a bargain if you ask me (:
I hope you enjoyed my little haul (:
Becki x
